I let my moodiness bring me down and keep me indoors to dwell on all of my worries, which is not what I want to continue to do. Through many talks, messages, phone calls, etc with friends, I have realized that in any kind of relationship, each person has to put forth effort and usually problems will arise if one person is putting forth a significant amount of more effort than the other. I'm tired of trying to please everyone. I'm tired of standing here asking for my friends to do somthing and waiting while i could be doing what I truely want. and to have fun.